recovery

Everything I held on to for the last however long.
You turned my world on its head.
And then you left it like that
But i'm not used to seeing things upside down.
I'm not used to looking at the world without thinking about you.

You haunted my daily routines, my poetry, and my dreams.
But no more.

You betrayed me, lied to me, and fucked it all over so badly.

I'm so hurt right now.
I forgot how to heal.
I forgot what it was like to feel pain this bad.