Sunday, January 24, 2010

For me, It's you.

You've only been gone for three days. Three long days.
Two nights I've spent without curling up next to you. Without waking up, hearing you say good morning, and watching you laugh and try to tame my mess of hair.
You say your family loves me. They say I'm a keeper... Well, I already knew I am but I'm so happy that they can see that. Can you see that? Do you see that? Are you going to keep me around in your life past what you know how to do with your heart?

Neither of us are being taught anything about love. We learn no philosophy, no poetry, no songs written by past lovers. I immerse myself in the light of life around me, you surround yourself with forces and calculations. Both strongly attached to science (and other nerdy things), yet both finding each other.
We're in an unknown field. I never saw you coming. You said you thought I was out of your league... Until you learned that a personality existed beneath the colorful exterior that, I admit, can be rather intimidating.

I'm so used to being on my own, to depending on myself. I keep my persona quite strong regardless of who I am surrounded by- something I learned the hard way over the years. Except now... I have you to lean on. You tug my hand when I start falling behind, you hold me when I need comfort, you talk to me when I need to be quieted, and you sit in silence when I need to speak. You're such a big part of my world; my heart is so happy because it is tied to yours.
I don't know how to fall in love. I don't know if you know how to either... I guess we can learn together and teach each other along the way.

I miss you. All the time. I'm terrible at leaving your side, but I do so only because I know I'll return soon.
It's been three days. Three incredibly long and somewhat empty days. I'm not sure what to do with how I feel.

I can't wait to be in your arms again. For the first time, I feel like I belong next to someone. Next to you. I belong nestled against your chest, listening to the gentle rhythm of your heart as it matches mine.
I can't wait to stop missing you.

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