The way I fall for you.

Thoughts of you criss cross in my mind like ice skaters on a pond. I stare at them in wonder, asking myself how this has come to be.

Three months have gone by since you first revealed to me that you had feelings for me. Does it feel like a long time? I'm not sure what it feels like. It feels like I've spent the last quarter of a year with you by my side... Admittedly, it took me a while to get used to it and accept that it was real. that YOU were real. that how you felt about me was real. IS real.

You tell me that I'm beautiful. That you don't know how you got a girl like me.
What or who is a "girl like me" exactly? I mean, I know who I am to me, but who am I to you?
That's a question that shouldn't be answered right now.

You make my head rush and my heart pound. I can't focus when you're in the room with me.
I'm not scared anymore. Do you know that?
I'm falling for you, you know. A little more every day.
It's all in the little things. The way you look at me just before you lean over to kiss me, the way you touch my side when I lie next to you, the way you laugh when I put my foot in my mouth (again). The way you look against my pillows when I wake up next to you. The way you call me when you miss me. The way you tell me to look foxy, knowing that I love being girly. The way you throw me in the pool even though I'm screaming for you to put me down. The way you hold my hand when we walk around.
The way you hold me... I feel so safe. I'm comfortable.
I want to spend a day with you just doing nothing. Spend the day in bed, or watching movies, or just staring at clouds.

I never thought that you'd be mine or I'd be yours. I never thought I'd be okay with belonging to someone... But I'm yours. I can't see anyone else because my mind's eye is stuck on you.
It's a bit annoying,really. There are times when I'd rather focus on what I'm doing rather than having my mind wander off to think about you.

You accept me as I am. Every crazy story, every dorky attribute, every small scar on my body, everything. It sounds corny, but I'm going ahed with it anyway- you helped me trust again.
So now I ask you, please, please don't take this away from me.
I'm falling too hard for you to go back now.