Physics and butterflies

I can't focus.
When I need to the most.
I have a final tomorrow.
at 1:30 pm.
My hardest final.

goddamn mother fucking physics.
Electromagnetism bullshit
and I know I'm going to get it and be like OH I KNOW THIS
for about half of it
and the other half is just going to get a giant WTF reaction
and I feel like I should try to prevent that
but at the same time
I don't know how
because it just doesn't quite stick in my brain
so maybe I'll just keep writing down equations
like those little letters means something
beyond force and electric fields and gravity

but it just puts me to sleep
I would rather talk about the rainforests and the treetops and the leaf litter and the birds and the fungi and the insects and the butterflies
I love butterflies
they're so beautiful and unique
like little scraps of silk floating on the wind

I wish I could be a butterfly.