Over

You have bruised my ego on six separate occasions
broken my heart at least twice
lied to me for eleven days straight
about three different things.

You were the almost lover that I kept on waiting for
but you got drunk with the clock
you wasted my time.

You swung your wrecking ball lack of compassion all over my sorry self
until I was left trying to rebuild cities I didn't even know existed
you poisoned my mind with your serpents tongue; you decieved me.

You never loved me
and based on your spiteful and vindictive actions
i'm not even sure if you liked me.

You never had the courage to make me yours
so I can't even call you my Ex
so instead, I'll call you my Y
for Why did I waste my time? Why did I ever believe you were a good idea?
Why did you think this was all just a game?

and I doubt that you'll say you're sorry
but just in case you think of handing me an apology
let me tell you right now
that you can keep it
along with all your other insincerities and illogical bullshit
like your
make time for your frat bros and sorority sisters but not me bullshit
that breaking my heart freshman year doesn't count because you didn't have your life together yet bullshit
that not deciding to help me through one of the hardest time in my life because you were too busy bullshit
that not treating me the way I know I deserve to be treated bullshit
that bashing on my poetry because you don't understand what it means to speak from the heart bullshit.

You can't say you're surprised,
I warned you that if you didn't figure it out
there would be consequences.
you looked at me and said
oh, like you'll get a boyfriend?
no, I meant that I won't be in your life anymore.
that I won't put up with this anymore
that I'll finally snap to my senses and drop you faster than a shitty GE class

and since when is my personal life any of your damn business,
when you never made me a part of yours?
so I might get lucky enough to find someone
who knows what they want from me
and isn't afraid to say it
who doesn't just hold my hand when no one is looking
who brags to their friends about me
instead of just telling them about the drama
who actually calls me before 1 am
when they're sober
not looking for anything
just to talk
who takes a moment to realize
that I might be grieving even if tears aren't flowing
and let me know that I have their support
who acts like a real fucking friend.

because you never did.

and I was too stubborn to realize that you never would.

So this would be goodbye, but there's nothing good about it
I'd let you know that this is the end, but I'm pretty sure that already happened when you chose a new social life over people who have had your back since day one.
I'd say that I'm over it, but I'm not. I'm beyond it.
and if you think I'm being cruel, or unfair, or hasty
remember that I made excuses for you when you made it hard to do so
I waited for you but you wore down my patience
I gave you my trust and you just gave me headaches of problems that were all caused by you.

So now when I say i'm done, I mean it.
Done with your drunken antics
done with your bipolar, rollercoaster, twisted excuses of emotions
done with believing we could ever have a functional friendship
done with the lies that you gave to me like they were gifts
I'm done with you.