Anger and magnetic relationships

I hate you SO much right now! Okay, I don't hate you, but still.
I'm SO MAD AT YOU! Why can't you just leave me alone?
It's not my fault that I can't stay away from you! You pull me in; we're the two opposites of the same magnet. We're attracted to each other until we get too close, then we start to repel. Can't we just maintain a healthy distance?!

You've put me through so much and I just want it to end. I want it to be over! Just let me get over you already, dammit!
Time is our enemy, he won't let us realize anything until it's already too late

"It's all your fault, you called me beautiful. You turned me out, and now I can't turn back."
You showed me the possibility of a future together. You showed me something I'd never seen before, and when I fell I fell hard.

I'm going to come out and say it- I thought I could fall in love with you. I still think, maybe even know, that I could. But too many things keep getting in the way.
Timing, family, friends, our own stubborness, our feelings, the way we protect our hearts.

I'm too stubborn to let you go and yet I just want it to be over. Confused? check yes.

You make me so angry. It's very very rare that I actually get angry over anything. I'm angry at you, I'm angry with you, I'm angry at the whole damn situation! I don't want to take it all back and lose our memories, but I don't want to be here either!

Even as I write this I can feel my anger fading. I can never stay upset with you for long.
If I said these things to you, you would either be hurt or get angry with me in return.
If I hurt you, I would apologize and you would understand that what I'm saying is true but I'm only saying it because I'm angry and hurt already.
If you got angry in return, we would crash heads and then soften like we always do.

We always come back to wanting to be near each other.
I always come back to you once the anger and pain subsides. That tells you something- duh.
I know it's not fair to me or you to be in this situation, but maybe the two of us are supposed to struggle through this until we succumb to our magnetic selves.
We will either repel each other away and not come together again, or...
We will learn to keep the repelling sides of ourselves away from each other so that the pull towards the other is strengthened.

I'm know I was supposed to get over you, and I kinda did. For a little while anyway.
But I miss you. I'm sorry.