messy, emotional, and sleep deprived but still truthful.

I can't say what I want to say most, because you won't hear me. You're not listening.
But I'm trying, damn you.
You are the most frustrating, challenging, and confusing person EVER.
I can't read you, and it drives me absolutely crazy! Whenever you come up in conversation, it's to say that no one understands what we're going through, not even us.

Let me make it simple for you:
My heart jumps when you stand next to me on the roof and take my hand.
I can't help but smile when you run to see me.
I hate when it feels like you don't want to see me.
I also really hate that I sound like an idiot whenever I try to talk about you and how I feel about you.

I don't know what to do. I'm so lost. I'm not confused, just stuck.
I'm stuck on you. Stuck with you. I want to stick with you.
I'm being patient until you figure out that I'm here.
You'll discover that I've been here all along... hopefully I have enough patience to still be there when that happens.

I miss you so much it makes me want to cry, want to run and see you, want to do anything to be with you.
You don't get it, do you?
I only seem desperate because I can't help it. I don't know what it is about you.
I just need to get the words on the page and out of my head.

Take me in your arms and say nothing at all.