Some things just don't change.

There are some things that I wish I could say, but the truthful words will always remain behind my lips.
There are some things that I wish I could do, but I keep my arms at my sides to prevent them from reaching for you.
There are some things that I wish I could stop thinking about, but my mind always returns to you.

I want your arms around me.
I want your voice in my ear.
I want to stop hurting.
I want you back. So badly.
And I didn't know that I'd feel this way until you walked out and said "this isn't goodbye."
But it was.

I said goodbye to you. My best friend. My lover. Part of my world.
And now... Now I can't let you go.
I want to stop crying and stop hiding my emotions behind facades of smiles.

I hate trying at something I know won't work... But I want to be with you so badly and I can't help it.

I realized that I was falling for you too hard to turn back. I don't know when or how or why it happened, but I knew that it was. Did I forget to tell you how much you meant to me? How much you mean to me?
I'm so confused and lost when it comes to you.
I feel broken.
I am broken.

I can't take my mind off of you.
I can see you and be completely fine.
Then, I'll sit in my room for a few minutes and everything will come rushing back.
I need change. I need something to be different.

I need to move on.
But I still don't know how.