Once the dam breaks, words just start flowing

I miss you.
Isn't that enough?
Why can't i just say this to you?
I'm scared.
I'm terrified that you don't feel the same way or that you'll reject me or that you're going to break my heart.
I can't even tell what I'm feeling anymore; if this is real or i'm just tired and stressed out.
But I still miss you.
Every day, I miss you more.
You don't say it back.
I notice.
You may think I don't, but I do.
I say it all.
but I think you're hesitating to tell me because it's not the truth.

I was stupid and foolish and put my heart into something that wouldn't work.
I was young and careless, like I said I wanted to be.
and now I can't even get myself together.
How can you do this to me
by doing nothing at all?

I hate feeling like this.
I want to be mad at you, but it doesn't make sense.
I'm so mixed up. I just want answers. Or reasons.
I just want you.
Is that too much to ask for?