Starlight

Losing you is difficult
I was never sure if I could call you mine
so I'll hide my confusion in my head
and in these lines

Do you know that I'm yours?
Or maybe you're afraid to ask.
I'm not that intimidating, am I?
it shouldn't be such a difficult task.

How can you change so much
in so few days?
Do you know how much i miss you?
Let me list the ways.

I miss the way you danced with me
like there was no one else around
I miss the way you we lied on the dock
immersed in thoughts and sounds
I miss the way your eyes looked
when they were locked with my own
I miss the way you made me feel;
I finally wasn't alone.
I miss how you made me laugh
when I thought i was upset
I miss the connection I felt
the moment we first met.
I miss how I was able to deal
so much better before i knew you
Now i'm stuck wondering what, if anything
there's left for me to do.

Aside from cling to my pillow
and let tears slide down my face
like I haven't been here before
like I don't know this place.

Aside from gaze at the stars
and silently wonder
if you look at them
if they pull your logic under

Every time I see the night sky
untouched by the sun's harsh rays
you feel so much closer
but I feel farther away.

So i'm stuck, unmoving
waiting to say goodbye, unless
you decide your answer
is actually yes.