Magnets

This is something I hope I don't have to read again.
Something I hope I don't have to write again.
Because I can't tell you everything
so I'll keep you here
pressed between the pages in my mind
and the space between my fingers and the keys that would type
please don't leave me.

I can already tell that I'm going to miss you more than I can even begin to understand.
but you have nothing to give me, and I have nothing to give you.
but we are opposite sides of the same magnet
we make a complete circle.
and yet, we form the point that the circle will be broken at
in less than a week.

To say that I value your time is an understatement.
moments with you are currently my most precious commodity
and I can't get enough of them.

You don't understand why I'm here.
You think I'm bat shit insane.
Well, I probably am.
but that doesn't change the fact that you make my whole body sing.
my soul starts trilling when you walk in the room
my mind bounces around gleefully when your name lights up the screen on my phone
hell, I've even actually sung in front of you.

I feel comfortable around you.
and I know that you've had enough people tell you that to make it sound old
but I'm not like that
I don't get comfortable
I don't let my guards down
I don't walk away from the strength that I've been building for so long.

I'm trying to figure out what we're creating
so that I can understand what I'm going to take away from all of this
but I think it's going to be wordless, nameless, faceless

So here's to hoping that I won't miss you too much.
that you won't get buried too deep into me
that pulling you out won't break too many things
I promised that you wouldn't hurt me
and I stand by that.
I'll probably end up hurting myself by accident
but if we can both heal a few fissures
patch together some of our jagged earthquake cracks
then this will be worth it.