Chaos pt 2

In the last seven days
I have seen you three times
for a total of 22 hours
but if I could count the amount of time that I think of you when you're not around
that last number would be a lot bigger

and last year I stumbled upon a quote by Nietzsche
You must have chaos in your soul to give birth to a dancing star
I knew it was beautiful but I didn't fully understand it
part of me knew I was supposed to be moved by it
but it never really sunk in
until I met you

you have so much chaos in your soul that you've given rise to entire galaxies
and I feel like I'm just sitting here in the dark
always trying to find serenity
walk along the path back to my center
leaving chaos as the ultimate indulgence
like the last piece of seven layer chocolate cake
I would only consume it on rare occasions
but the frosting would be too thick or the flavor would be too rich
and I would always leave it half finished
never fully enjoying my slice

until you appeared.
well, you didn't really appear so much as you were already there
and I was the one to walk in
lock eyes with you
and see that there was something burning behind your tiger lily eyes
the thing I didn't know about having chaos in your soul
is that it transforms you into someone on fire
and you were keeping the flames just below your skin
it was the most beautiful dance of embers I've ever seen.

you ripped apart the airwaves between us
and i couldn't help moving to the new music of dissonance.

In the last seven days, I have seen you three times for a total of twenty two hours.
but the time that I'm going to be spending thinking about you in the years to come
is a number that I don't want to think about.